Well, here we are. Tonight is the night—that Richard and I could legally become Isaac’s parents. My heart longs for him to finally be ours, BUT I must rest and wait in the Lord.
Psalm 27:14 “Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.”
I feel like my heart is on the way to the hospital…driving there to deliver. Will the physician say, “Yes, it’s time!” Or…will He say, “He’s just not ready yet–I am going to send you home…but you will be back.”??? Yes, we are a part of this story. But the story is not just “ours”. And I can’t afford to be selfish in it. I want the Lord’s will to be done. Because what IF it could be grander? Then…not mine—but thy will be done!
Proverbs 19:21 “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”
Richard and I followed this journey to Isaac because we felt the Lord calling us to grow our family. Through our work with Wiphan, our eyes were open to the need in Africa and all over the world…but it truly and honestly was not the need that drew us…but the longing for what the Lord placed on our hearts. Yet just as I longed for Frank, we have longed for another baby…our Issac. As much as I wanted them to induce me for Frank’s delivery…I selfishly wanted him here and I wanted to be comfortable…YET I truly didn’t want him here in my arms before he was ready and before the Lord wanted his first day to begin. Again—selfishly I want Isaac home and I want to no longer be uncomfortable being worlds apart. Of course I am confident in the care he could receive here, but because I have already seen the great work the Lord has done–I am MORE confident in the Lord and His PERFECT CARE! More than anything—I want His will to be done…I want what is BEST for Isaac…and what will bring the Lord the most glory.
Psalm 33:20 “Our souls wait for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. For our heart shall rejoice in Him, because we have trusted in His holy name.”
As much as I pray tonight to become Isaac’s mommy, I also pray for his birth mom. I pray that we will pass WHEN it will work out for me to actually meet her. Coming into this journey my heart was broken for the widow. I feel like the Lord has placed something on my heart—and that if I don’t meet her when I go to get Isaac that I will need to go back one day to meet her. And of course…once Isaac is home—it will be hard to leave him…so I pray that we will pass court and be given travel dates when I can meet her.
Because…what if.
What if God wanted to do more than just grow our family?
What if God wanted even more than I could imagine possible?
What if just was Wiphan began in Zambia through a widow whose heart we had fallen in love with…what if something like Wiphan was born in Ethiopia through a widow’s heart…that we have fallen in love with?
What if there is more to the story than just “ours”…and therefore, we can’t afford to be selfish in our prayer. THY WILL BE DONE.
Yes, I want to be Isaac’s mommy. Yes, I want him home. BUT MY GOD IS ABLE. And I trust Him.
When we begin to pray for the bigger picture–we no longer know HOW to pray…and our prayer becomes THY WILL BE DONE.
Yes, our expenses are paid. Yes, the Lord has provided. Yes, the Lord has over and over and over again shown us this is His will and HE has paved a way…and provided EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
But today and tonight I will lift my hands to the Creator.
THY WILL BE DONE.
Do more, oh Father, than we could ever imagine possible. Thy will be done! He goes before us—and boy, His plan PERFECT! I long to be Isaac’s mommy…but even more than being Parker, Laney, Frank and Isaac’s mommy…I long for His will to be done. Oh, will you be brave and couragous and lift your hands and ask the same thing for your journey in this life? What if there was even more that the Lord wanted to do if you were willing to raise your hands…forget about all you have to lose…all you have to gain…and just say THY WILL BE DONE.
My God, tonight, will not sleep or slumber. He goes before us. He goes before Isaac’s birth mom on her journey RIGHT NOW. And He who is healing my son…(tears)…is also healing me. Be encouraged by this.
Off to chase my little ones…and find my rest in the Lord. When we hear our news…you will be the first to know;-).
by admin
Praying peace and comfort for your precious family this day! We can’t wait to hear about how it goes. Love you!!
Oh Andrea, I love your heart! You are the one who is going to court tonight and yet your words are comforting me! Wow! I admit, I have been anxious for you and I have been anxious for our yet to be scheduled court date. We all want our kiddos home asap. But God is faithful and His plans are ALWAYS best – thanks for this reminder today!
Praying for you!
Hey! I want you to know that this girl in Ohio has already prayed for you today! It is on my calendar!!! I have this saying on my fridge that I look at often, Gods timing is always perfect, even if we don’t realize it at the time. I believe that with all my heart and I will keep praying for GODS will 🙂 Can’t wait to hear!!
Amen sister! Beautiful post! Ephesians 3:20
Your faith is so encouraging. I don’t stop often enough to ask Him to do what He wants.
beautiful post, andrea! praying for your family.
Friend – you are right – God’s will be done! I know that our awe-inspiring God has huge plans for your Isaac – I can only wait in anticipation for all He has to show us!! Praying for you tonight (for a little sleep!)
Waiting in prayer with you sweet friend.
Blessings,
Amy
So genuinely and perfectly written, Andrea. Praying, Thy Will Be Done.
Believing great things for you! Can’t wait to read of your “pass” tomorrow.
Hugs,
Meghan
Praying for you all now! 🙂
Praying for you! Praying for strength, courage, hope and for God’s will! Can’t wait to hear how court goes!
Thank you for your wise words!!!
I’ll pray for you tonight…and for sweet Isaac. I love to read your story…at 3 months out ours is already feeling like a distant memory. It is wonderful to follow others on their journey!
You’ve been on my heart all day! Praying, praying, praying for your peace in the wait and for His perfect timing.
pins and needles over here my friend. You’ve had MORE people praying for your family & sweet, precious little Isaac, I think you’d be blown away. 🙂 Every one around me knows about little Isaac & have been praying. You come up in my daily conversations. 🙂 I LOVE how God has placed your family & little Isaac on my heart so heavy…. *amazing* how He does that. I have hit refresh no less than 10 times since 9am. It’s 11:34pm. I am either 1) REALLY REALLY excited for you & that precious little boy or 2) Excited AND a freak. Your call. 🙂 LOL. seriously, I was sharing your story with a group of people at church last night whose hearts are being tugged in adoption.. God has been working SO MUCH in our church it has been mind-boggling. He is onto something [huge] in our church right now, and I just pray for guidence, complete surrender, and obidence. You are a blessing to many… praying for you friend… THY WILL BE DONE. *hugs*
Chrystal…I am right there with you, my friend! 🙂 I have “refreshed” the website this morning no less than 8-10 times! I can’t stand the anticipation! Andrea – I am hoping that no news (so far) is GOOD news! My son, Chase, & I said extra special prayers for you & your family last night!