We live in such a fast culture…waiting patiently for anything doesn’t seem to come natural. Through a crazy connection, I learned that the sweet one we are praying for isn’t available for adoption. Regardless of being a double orphan (both birthparents no longer living)–different countries have different rules…and the family member who relinquishes a child at an orphanage has the say in adoption status–even if it means growing up in an orphanage instead. Oh my heart.
Still, I don’t feel like we can just walk away–and He has laid this on our hearts for some purpose. His Word says that His ways are higher than our ways. I am to lay my heart before the Lord…be still in His presence…and wait patiently for Him to act.
How long Lord? (How many of you are in a place of waiting and want to ask this too?!) How long do we wait patiently before moving forward on the path we were pretty certain you had laid out for us? We don’t do very good waiting and being still in the grey do we? Alright, maybe I shouldn’t speak for you–but I sure don’t. BUT HE KNOWS ALREADY…and He longs for us to trust Him.
EVEN JOY—We even are to have JOY and worship…even in the grey…in the unknown. And really–I think He would want us instead of seeing this as confusing…to see it as exciting. (If it doesn’t FEEL exciting…it is okay…but it is a redflag that maybe our perspective is off.)
In the waiting…He wants us to just fall more in love with Him…through our trust in Him…and being patient on His best–on His will.
You know how when you are deeply in love with someone…you just can’t WAIT to see their next move. What they will do next. Isn’t this how the Lord wants us to look at Him???
Really–the grey should be exciting.
Even when you are so uncertain–you trust…
…and you know even if it’s not the exact what you’d have it all play out–deep down you really know because you love Him and He loves you right back…that what He will do…will ultimately bring YOU pleasure because it’s in His will.
His good, pleasing, perfect will.
In fact…He says in Isaiah you will be amazed. That you won’t even BELIEVE what He’s about to do–even if you were told.
As I sat here thinking about the twists and turns and tugs on my heart–I feel like a public service announcement, “We interupt this program for a period of waiting. This is only a test. Do not be alarmed. Carry on with joy, day to day life, looking to your Provider. Do not act without hearing from your service Provider first. Again–this is only a test. BEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPP.”
Now, that’s usually when I change channels or turn the tv off. But…right now…I’m just supposed to wait.
So, we put ourselves out there creatively through things the Lord puts on our hearts…day by day…week by week…maybe even months…and we wait. (Something us adoption mommas learn to eventually do pretty well!)
And until then–life goes on in our waiting.
And our joy becomes worship to Him as He sees us trust Him.
And this family…we have so much wonderful to find joy in…even in this weekend. Thank you Lord for overflowing sweetness ahead. Family in town for a little reunion Friday night at our house. Saturday we’re going to the waterpark nearby (THANK YOU APRIL G at Legancy Lodge for sending our family tickets as a special treat for connecting after Africa!!! Mommy wouldn’t be splurging after the trip–but this is such a sweet gift and treat…THANK YOU! Pictures I’m sure to come!). Saturday night we are getting together with some of our dearest adoption family friends–the Johnson family. And then a dessert with our Zambia team to let everyone meet spouses and share pictures.
And Sunday…
GUESS WHAT SUNDAY IS???
A sweet little boy TURNS TWO!!! I can’t believe I will now have TWO 2 year olds running around my house!!! Sounds like T-R-O-U-B-L-E with a capital T!!! Happy birthday on Sunday to my precious little man…
a few things you must know…his most recent milestones…
Age 2 – Isaac does this…
…takes off his shirt 24-7
…says “chicken fingers” A LOT
…gets the most laughter when he combines those…nothing like seeing a little brown round belly when he takes off that shirt and then shouts “chicken fingers” (TOO FUNNY!)
…can name EVERY mode of transportation in his favorite truck book
…but his most favorite book of all is his “LIBA book!” Olivia forms a Band He even begs to sleep with it at night:)
…phrase he says the most “I DID IT!” and then claps for himself
…gives great big HUGS and sweet kisses! We are so thankful for our 4th child…our sweet son Isaac Temesgen!!!
Now…with a reminder of that belly…can you see why we think it’s so funny when he rips his little shirt off and goes a running around where ever we are?! Hope y’all have a great weekend ahead!!!
XOXO!
Andrea
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